like a school girl

I'm in school! right now waiting for creative writing to start
I'm actually excited about this class
i havent written in forever
school has been ok, I'm a waitress again
life is blahhhh
I'm planning a bachelorette party for Rosie that should be interesting and next week
the wedding :)
Its feeling very fall like outside making me miss having a boy friend


Quote of the day : she completely fell for him : but he didn't even stumble

I wanna rock with you

Just got back from Chicago :)

i had lots of fun

seeing all of the wonderous downtown

and some of the not so wonderous neighborhoods lol

I really love downtown chicago it just makes me smile

i miss it already

in a sec i shall study for psych :/

i know im super late but its still sad that michael jackson died

he was awesome and i have been jamming to him

since i was born

i really have nothing to say i really only write alot when im in

that heartbreak stage

being heartbroken isnt all that bad

im most creative then

ive been listening to drake all weekend in chicago sooo ---DRAKE lyrics

houstalantavegas-

shes just stuck in Houstatlantavegas, Houstatlantavegas, Houstatlantavegas, Houstatlantavegas And she dance... to this song... and she dance to this song... and it goes Hey now now watch her go down

Little bit-

Hands down I'm too proud for love But with eyes shut it's you I'm thinking of But how we move from A to B It can't be up to me Cause you don't know who I was before you Basically to see a change in me I'd be losing so I just ignore you, yeah

my words fly up my thoughts remain below

SOOOOO i really want to see transformers

(i lovesss Shia LaBeouf he is my lover... tis is true)

but i should study for my finals

i mean i can see it on the weekend but that just seems like no fun

gosh finals in the summer is even worse than in the normal school year

Ive been real anti social

but I'm either at school or sleep

i did spend all Saturday shopping which was awesome

buttt i cant use my ATM card so now

i regret spending all the cash i had on me

someone better fix my damn card or its gonna be a robbery

..............

Ill tell you this for free

converse with no socks =hell

and this is Le fact

gosh i was in a hurry

i still love converse it wasn't their fault

Shall I compare thee to a summer's day?

its hot as hell all of a sudden it wants to be summer

oh sweet summer u are cruel and wonderous all at the same time

i shall be in Le Chi (Chicago duh) on 4th of July (actually leave the 3rd)

which is tres exciting

oh i miss Chicago its also one of my lovers

and how exciting I've never been in the summer

spring ,yes fall, uh huh winter ,check but never

summer :)

right now I'm talking in a French accent for some

odd reason as u can see its in my writing (ha)

i don't know french just basics

I'm better at Spanish but can speak neither

so i must say Au revoir

parting is such sweet sorrow

(also speaking Shakespeare (the official language) which also is all through the note even the title which he is English and french is well ...french butt diff non the less I'm uniting countries within me .....ohhh sounds dirty )

QUOTE OF THE DAYYYY: 'A synonym is a word you use when you can’t spell the word you first thought of.'

15 Min of fame.........

Trying desperately to do a paper on Andy Warhol ...................he was indeed awesome but he did soo much that i cant just focus on one thing and since I'm not that great at art history not bad but I'm like at a C and i would like a B + if not an A so this paper is my life right now .....

I've given up completely on political science

but art history shall be my savior

Andy warhol will not defeat me

i love him so therefore I'm sure i will find everything i need to know

and end up with the best paper ever written

fingers crossed

if your not familiar with his art (shame)

he did the multi color pics of Marilyn Monroe and the soup cans

basically anything popular at the time

with lots of color.

any hoo off to more research

Quote of the day: "In the future, everyone will be famous for 15 minutes." ANDY WARHOL

song I'm listening to: NONE I'M TRYING TO WRITE A PAPER!!!!

hate me baby maybe im a piece of art

whats in my pocket dog? well if u don't know then never mind! gosh I'm so tired but i cant lie imma ball til i die lol ok I'm sorry rap is playing right now and apparently I'm super man high.... any hoo i shall be going to the DIA in the morn I'm excited i haven't been since i was a lil bit littler :) so that's the highlight of my weekend which is indeed my fault blah shit i got papers to write I'm not allowed to live ...................


sharp nostalgia, infinite and terrible for what i already possess

i dont love u liar

in the library not studying for art history i shall fail .... gosh i forgot how much i hate school! i just got the urge to cry not from school but from a stupid sentence i hate when i turn all human and get emotional damn this stupid heart of mine i thought i broke u and threw away the pieces ! any way off to fail another test SAYONARA (sp?)

Ill never be love and ill never be all u need!

it ends tonight

used word tiles and i kinda liked it sooo

Title: words speak

Poem:
remember clouds were heavy
to those heartless
all night holding you hurt
beneath the smile
rain
wheres love

Poem created using Shadow Poetry Magnetic Word Tiles

what would you do for a klondike bar?

Who's names start with "T" in your conacts? Tanika my sis

Do you have a Facebook?yesss

What are you doing Saturday?today was saturday i didnt do anything

What's your middle name?nikea

What's the last song you listened to? mother lover i guess lol from snl

A broken heart is? is never fun

Is there a quote you love? tooo many such as make love not war

Do you ever turn your cell phone off? yessss

Who is the last person to send you a text? jason

What is your current wallpaper on your cell phone? kissses and skull and cross bones

What is your zodiac sign? pisces

Who was the last person to call you? ur mom

What was the last thing you made into a heart? ummmmm

How tall is the last person you hugged? i d k

Last time you threw up? cinco de mayo

What color is your underwear? gray

What are you listening to right now? dane cook

What is something you wish you had more of? money, fun, hair lol

Last person in the car with? my sis

Who was driving? my sis

Last time you had the butterflies, who were you thinking of? shitttt

Where were you at 2:00 this morning? home

Do you like thunderstorms? love them

Have you ever been into drugs?nope

Say you were dying tomorrow: what would you want to eat last? idk something awesome

Who have you texted today? ppl

What is your current mood? blahhhhhh

Who do you know that can make you feel better if you're not feeling happy? idk thats the problem

Do you hate when people call you when you're sleeping? yes

Biggest annoyance in your life right now? life

Has anyone ever told you they're in love with you? yeah

Do you miss anyone? yeah

Could you ever be friends with someone who hurt you before? yes

Are you wearing any makeup right now? none

Do you like to cuddle? sometimes

Honestly, do you really love the last person you said "I love you" to? yeah or i wouldnt have said it

do you remember the way i held your hand

FRIDAY NIGHT
gosh I'm cramping!
and singing fall out boy songs to myself i wish i had the energy to get up and put the CD on
I'm in this chair and i shall not move
I'm feeling real loose right now as in, like the world could fall from
under me at any moment
is loose the right word oh well ho hum
i cant rely on anyone any more
its scary because if all i have is myself then i just may be doomed
i don't feel depressed or unloved as i have many times before
just like its either the end or idk ,im blah !
i have no problem being alone never have but
in order to get things done i do need help
my friends just seem so far away and I'm to tired to travel the distance
my family oblivious to me growing up and still wants to treat me as if I'm lil kristen
i stand alone not sure if i want it to go back to normal whatever that is
or do i give up and start from the beginning
maybe its time to breath new life in to myself

song im singing :) - "I've Got All This Ringing In My Ears And None On My Fingers" fall out boy

quote- stuck in emotional purgatory- avolon

Im up its thunderstorming and im blank ..... Kristen=dirty lil secret............. best kept secret and ur biggest mistake

Study time ! Right after first test Blah school consumes me and i just started -my eyes hurt art history= death

waking up next to.........

I'm dead i had way to much to drink last night but it was cinco de mayo
you know just celebrating my inner mexican
drunk nights are always fun to look back on...............
or should i say embarrassing, crazy, makes you want to scream
"can you slap my fucking face"!
it was fun while it lasted now I'm back to reality
sober,upset,alone, and hating you
shit i feel awesome

Quote of the day- intelligent man is sometimes forced to be drunk to spend time with his fools-earnest Hemingway............ Man, being reasonable, must get drunk; the best of life is but intoxication- lord Byron

sugar coated

I cant stop thinking I'm annoyed!
I want everyone to go away or just .......
I wish for things that are no good for me but it makes me feel so perfect am i lying to myself. If so i cant be mad if ur a liar I'm no better then you......................

Alls fair in love and war!

put up the peace sign put yo index down

I'm like only listening to gym class heroes for some reason oh and fall out boy sometimes with other stuff sprinkled in ok I'm listening to lots of stuff but mostly gch ! sooo reading my diary / notebook of random writing thought i would share of course cause at night i don't like to talk i like to type (and touch maybe ) -side note lol these are from all over last year and this year so they may not go with the way i feel now there just thoughts i was having :p

~i thought i knew you

i know nothing

i feel nothing

i hear.......

everything

so watch yo

mouth ~

you don't even know
I'm going to ruin
you

mostly......... because i can

heartless

maybe

cold
of course
oh baby
i burn !

baby we belong alone

its the way we were made
that's why we always end up

together

blah anyway how was your day uh huh that's nice . i think my insides may have exploded but i mean i don't want to actually find out so if i drop dead that's probably why. my new fave obsession besides Travis McCoy (can we all just stop and picture him right now hmmmm awesome) anyways its brave new voices this show about slam poetry and teenagers they are sooooo good it makes me jealous and proud at the same time. It also has started my new crush on this 19 year old boy named b. young hes so cute and broken and creative hes just hot!

so lets recap

i love TRAVIS MCCOY from GCH he curses and he has lots of tattoos and he use to date Katy perry (boooo) and i love him :)

i also love b. young from brave new voices -the show rocks u should watch (if ur into emotional teenage poetry) it comes on HBO

i pretty much hate you

and ............ ummm suck it :)

Quote of the day -in the book of life the answers aren't in the back-charlie brown

song u should listen to :) - winter song by Sara berellies also sung on MTV by Mia it was awesome

This is my winter song to you. The storm is coming soon, It rolls in from the sea
My voice; a beacon in the night. My words will be your light,To carry you to me.
Is love alive? Is love alive? Is love
They say that things just cannot grow Beneath the winter snow, Or so i have been told.
They say were buried far, Just like a distant star I simply cannot hold.
Is love alive?Is love alive?Is love alive?
This is my winter song. December never felt so wrong, Cause you're not where you belong; Inside my arms.
I still believe in summer days.The seasons always change And life will find a way.
Ill be your harvester of light And send it out tonight So we can start again.
Is love alive?Is love alive?Is love alive?

listening to.............

"The Queen And I"

~gym class heroes~

I love it how she breathes booze in the mornin'
Man, it's so sexy how she can't remember last night
I made a fatal mistake letting her drink again
But who the hell am I to tell her how to live her life?

And if you could put dumb in a shot glass
I'm just another lush who's had one too many in me
And we please don't have enough
I see you stand there, settle for anything, anything's better than lettin' her,
Think she could do better than me
She'll come around eventually'

Cause baby girl's a queen
But the queen is just a pawn with a bunch of fancy moves
And she's made me a fiendI'm going through withdrawals 'cause
I got nothing to lose

Oh no,She's at the bottom of that bottle
She's only one more swallow
From being, oh, so hollow
(Hey! Hey! Hey!)
Bravo, she's at the bottom of that bottle
She's only one more swallow
From being, oh, so hollow

I find it funny she can never find her car keys
Immediately after telling me she can't take it
She makes the cutest faces when she screams obscenities
And slurs her words because she's never not inebriated
And the front page headline read
Let the girl go, you know you can do better
It's bad, when the fact that you can't have her
Is the reason you sweat her,
Don't let her take advantage of you
Like the other dudes let her
You better cut your losses now buddy.'

Cause baby girl's a queen
And a queen's a pawn with a bunch of fancy moves
And she's made me a fiend
I'm going through withdrawals '
cause I got nothing to lose

Oh no,She's at the bottom of that bottle
She's only one more swallowFrom being, oh, so hollow
(Hey! Hey! Hey!)
Bravo, she's at the bottom of that bottle
She's only one more swallow
From being, oh, so hollow

Drown yourself,It's not worth keeping me
Just put it down right now,
And bow out gracefully
('Cause baby girl's a queen
The queen's just a pawn with a bunch of fancy moves
And she's made me a fiend
I'm going through withdrawals 'cause I got nothing to lose)

Oh no,She's at the bottom of that bottle
She's only one more swallow
From being, oh, so hollow
(Hey! Hey! Hey!)
Bravo, she's at the bottom of that bottle
She's only one more swallow
From being, oh, so hollow
(Hey! Hey! Hey!...)

I dont know

I'm clumsy

very clumsy as a matter of fact

i broke a wine glass yesterday while cleaning the table.

I'm weird as I'm sure you can tell .......

i have lots of secrets ,use to be a protection thing when i was little (i was very different but didn't want anyone to know) now its just a habit and kinda fun.

I'm very comfortable with who i am

and don't think i could change for anyone else unless i really wanted to.

i hate Wednesdays ,love Thursdays and Sunday

every other day is just a day

I'm kind of a day to day person i don't like to plan

it makes me anxious

i don't like to lie I'll just not answer

i feel if i lie then I'll be misunderstood

i hate to be misunderstood

..................................................................

so far i like you...... right...... but I'm not sure ill ever be good at being a

"GIRLFRIEND"

yuck even the word makes me cringe

i hate labels

I'm sorry to say it doesn't get any easier with me

i don't force things if it happens it happens

i cant explain exactly how i feel about you

becauseeeeee I'm not sure yet

when i figure it out

you will be the first to know:)

am i your anything

shit i haven't written since forever and a day
I'm angry, why? i have nooooooo idea
I'm mad at everyone i know everyone i knew everyone i might know soon
Ive completely cut off contact with everyone almost or is it the other way around
I'm finding myself more rebellious doing things Even I'm ashamed of
good thing i guess is I'm going to school in a month

i will never ask if you don't tell me i know you well enough to know you never loved me

i am sooo anti relationships its not funny i just don't understand why now why when I'm so young and so stupid that if you don't break us i will i can handle the pressure thee stress
i cant lose myself for someone else right now i don't Even know who i am yet
I'm sooo into myself that i don't Even miss missing you anymore
im in no rush to do anything ...................................

xoxo

you dont even know me

I'm just wondering is it me that's changing or

is it everyone else ?

if you haven't noticed

you should pay attention

either way one of us will

be lost in the process

........................you say move on where do i go

i guess second best is all i will know .......................................

song im listening to: once in a lifetime -beyonce

lick me

i feel weird Monday morning blues maybe

I'm not sure what it is or no

i know exactly what it is i just don't want to acknowledge it

I'm a flirt i don't hide it but i flirt to hide other things

i like attention and like when guys like me

only to distract me from what I'm thinking about

then when i flirt too much to the point where

flirting isn't fun for either side i get depressed

its just weird that i don't really like anyone

i miss having a crush :/

on the other side of my brain

i love married to the mob clothes they are indeed the shit!

i also love their blog its funny and unapologetic

i love girls who say what they want

i think everyone should be a little more uncensored

including me !

so is it bad that im like in lust for obama

i never noticed how hot he is :)

my president is black

nooo my president is hottt

im learning to be brave in my beautiful mistakes

beer and apple pie is what my Saturday consists of ....

bang bang shoot shoot

UR NOT WORTHY

is it wrong that i really hate this guy my mom is dating like seriously hes rude and MARRIED and i just feel that for him to be married he should be much nicer lol

i don't know maybe I'm too judgemental because its my mom but from my observation i think hes a jerk (some of the things I've observed- hes selfish, spoiled and grown <--not good,rude,bossy,controlling) and not worth a nothing relationship and it makes me feel weird and very uncomfortable i just cant witness this foolishness i thought u were suppose to make wiser guy choices as u get older SHIT its scary!

GOODBYE YELLOW BRICK ROAD

gosh I'm looking forward to leaving because now i feel kinda homeless

i just feel not at home in my own home I've always felt out of place in Detroit but yet my house was like sanctuary but now its not and i guess that just means i have to go find a new place to feel at home :/



i feel like I'm getting older not sure if I'm liking it lol its just weird when somethings start to not matter anymore while other things are becoming important............





Pink Glitter in the Air Lyrics:
Have you ever fed a lover with just your hands?
Close your eyes and trusted, just trusted
Have you ever thrown a fist full of glitter in the air?
Have you ever looked fear in the face
And said I just don´t care
It´s only half past the point of no return
The tip of the ice berg
The sun before the burn
The thunder before the lightning
The breath before the phrase
Have you ever felt this way?
Have you ever hated yourself for staring at the phone?
Your whole life waiting on the ring
to prove you´re not alone
Have you ever been touch so gently you had to cry?
Have you ever invited a stranger to come inside?
It´s only half past the point of oblivion
The hourglass on the table
The walk before the run
The breath before the kiss
And the fear before the phrase
Have you ever felt this way? La La La La La La La La
There you are, sitting in the garden
Clutching my coffee, Calling me sugar
You called me sugar
Have you ever wished for an endless night?
Lassoed the moon and the stars and pulled that rope tight
Have you ever held your breath and asked yourself
will it ever get better than tonight? Tonight

heels over head

First let me say hello new year I'm sooo glad 08 is over i just feel much better in 09 lol and it has started off way better then 08 no break ups or stress just fun times so far :) ANY WAY I'm moving out of cold lonely Detroit so sayonara but good thing I'm going to place where its warm so that means lots of cute shoes :) i hate anything winter boots (except all year boots) sweaters( except cardigans i like the naughty librarian look) and especially hats and gloves i don't like my head or hands covered sooooo no more that but yeah i gets to buy lots of cute shoes I'm excited because i lovessss shoes dearly they make me more happy then any boy ever (kinda)

I'm gonna miss everyone (well u know who I'm talking about not really everyone ) most importantly i hope everyone misses me cause i likes to be missed ;)

my poor dog was just sitting in the kitchen looking miserable because he didn't have any water :( I'm gonna miss him most of all he really is better then any guy :p

my horoscope was very motivational it basically said this is my year so sorry everyone else well unless ur a Pisces also or maybe not i only read mine lol urs might be good also i checked on astrologyzone.com

parts from random conversation( Laura bought me a penis sucker)

me-I'm eating the penis sucker
Laura- lmao how is it
me-its ok lol
Laura -it looks like it taste crazy
me - its like kinda a berry taste lol
Laura- lmao that's crazy to hear
me- i know how u think i feel I'm sucking it thinking what is this taste

i didn't eat it all it was to hard (insert laughter)

ttyl biachtes

song of the day- black bird - the Beatles (hippie day)

quote of the day- they say the captain goes down with the ship so when thee world ends will god go down with it ........