Hold me up .....i'm falling

what do you do when you notice you are one step away from being alone.
i have many friends but they all seem to be gone and i haven't noticed till now it may be because Laura is moving.
everyone is scattered all over and sure they visit but what about in between I've had these friends for so long I've forgotten how to make new ones. I'm sure as I'm sitting in class in January which i haven't done since last January I'll be observing everyone wondering would they want to be my friend or no would i allow them to be.

it reminds me of a little girl with long hair and a cute little round face sitting in a new school in a uniform which no one else has on. shes a little scared but more wondering whats gonna happen next. all of a sudden a girl next to her slides her a note it says will you be my best friend circle yes or no. she immediately circles no and pushes it back across the table. the other girl is extremely hurt BUT she doesn't care at all.....

because of that my mom says I'm mean and I've always been judgemental. i don't think I'm mean I'm just very selective about the people i have around me. now i don't have to worry so much because there's no one around me

song I'm listening to: northern downpour- panic at the disco

quote of the day: We must be our own before we can be another's. ~Ralph Waldo Emerson