believe in me because i was made for chasing dreams

"Be clearly aware of the stars and infinity on high.
Then life seems almost enchanted after all".

I'm a pouty teenager forever
i have nothing important to say but
cant shut the hell up
i will be significant one day
now is the test to see if i am who
i think i am

"I love you in the same way
There's a chapel in a hospital
One foot in your bedroom
And one foot out the door
Sometimes we take chances
Sometimes we take pills
I could write it better
Than you ever felt it"


i love everything about you that hurts......................

Hold me up .....i'm falling

what do you do when you notice you are one step away from being alone.
i have many friends but they all seem to be gone and i haven't noticed till now it may be because Laura is moving.
everyone is scattered all over and sure they visit but what about in between I've had these friends for so long I've forgotten how to make new ones. I'm sure as I'm sitting in class in January which i haven't done since last January I'll be observing everyone wondering would they want to be my friend or no would i allow them to be.

it reminds me of a little girl with long hair and a cute little round face sitting in a new school in a uniform which no one else has on. shes a little scared but more wondering whats gonna happen next. all of a sudden a girl next to her slides her a note it says will you be my best friend circle yes or no. she immediately circles no and pushes it back across the table. the other girl is extremely hurt BUT she doesn't care at all.....

because of that my mom says I'm mean and I've always been judgemental. i don't think I'm mean I'm just very selective about the people i have around me. now i don't have to worry so much because there's no one around me

song I'm listening to: northern downpour- panic at the disco

quote of the day: We must be our own before we can be another's. ~Ralph Waldo Emerson

back like i forgot something

I'm extremely sleepy and cold sitting in my home

I'm thinking about lots and lots of stuff so i was just texting a someone and he asked me why I'm always playing games and i responded i always play games

i wonder is that a problem

i think right now i just don't want a boy around for a while like i just don't care about that anymore I'm like horrible at it any way



i just don't want it but i do I'm soo foolish i can never stay on one side I'm not sure if I'm confused or if i just want everything


---- man imma be gone you ain't never seen a nigga be gone like imma be gone---


soo Laura is trying to get me to move to Arizona with her and stefanie I'm thinking I'm thinking


i think I'm done i dont really feel like actually saying anything .................

think too much say too little that's meeeeeeeeee


gosh who will save me from myself


song I'm listening to: little wonders - rob Thomas

quote of the day: Lollipop Must mistake me you're a sucker
To think that I Would be a victim of another